Tuesday 15 April 2014

Pregnancy Symptoms

It is always great to have at least some of the pregnancy symptoms as I'm sure it gives such good assurance to every pregnant lady that their little ones are doing fine. The same goes to me.

When achieving a pregnancy alone is so very difficult, it leaves me with not much room to complain about any pregnancy symptoms that I have. I almost feel guilty to even mention it! Ha!

Well, the first thing I'd experienced is the lower backache. I had it even before I did my beta test! I didn't give much thought about it until I'm tested positive. I still have it now. My lower back aches when I brush my teeth, when I sit/stand for too long, when I change from sitting to standing position or vice versa, when I bend myself to pick up the lightest thing, or when I am simply walking. So, I know I have to be very careful not to stress my lower back. No heavy laundry baskets or groceries etc...probably nothing heavier than 5kg?

Then I have morning sickness which kicks in at just shy of 6 weeks. I feel constantly queasy and nauseous the whole day, everyday. From the moment I woke up, it lingers on until I finally go to bed. Sometimes I feel it even when I wake up in the middle of the night to use the toilet and it makes it so much harder to get back to sleep after that. I have not vomited though. I lose my appetite and I couldn't stomach most of my favourite foods anymore.  I could only eat some very selected foods which includes soup noodles, dry noodles, porridge, chicken and fruits (luckily!). Ginger doesn't look (and taste!) appealing anymore. Fish and brocollis (and now garlic!) taste so weird and almost...yucky! Lately, I find that the queasiness fades a little in the mornings. I simply try to eat and drink all that I could stomach in the mornings then. Anyway, however bad I am feeling, I must admit that I am happy that I still feel sick (I must be crazy!) and I know I'll go paranoid once all these queasiness disappear! Haha! I can handle this sickness...yes, I surely can! :)

There is this bloating too. My stomach looks fine in the mornings as I can only see my own tummy fats! Hehe! But towards the afternoons, it gets bloated so much that it really looks like a bump. Of course, I know it's only fluids and wind.

Constipation! It's not that bad actually. I'll get constipated maybe about once in a week? So, I'm good! ;)

My breasts do feel a bit tender to the touch and maybe a little sore/swollen at times but nothing unbearable.

I feel tired and exhausted all the time...but well, maybe not exactly tired. It's more like feeling bored and lazy because I'm at home most of the time! I couldn't imagine how 'strict bedrest' would make a person! I'll definitely go crazy!

Frequent urination is also one of the pregnancy symptoms. But I would think it's also due to the amount of water that I consume everyday. I will have to make one or two trips to the toilet every night. I wouldn't mind at all as long as I could get back to sleep...but sometimes the queasiness really got the better of me.

I also have this increased sense of smell. One of the few that I hate most is the smell of cigarettes! I will turn away every time I smell it from hubby's breath! Yikes! Then, I'd almost choked myself every time while cutting raw meat/chicken. Haha!

I wouldn't say I enjoy all these symptoms...but I want them to stay, at least until the end of the first trimester, so I could have peace of mind. These symptoms somehow give me great confidence that this pregnancy will be just fine.

Oh well, the joys of being pregnant! ;)


"You never understand life...until it grows inside you..."

Wednesday 9 April 2014

Spotting/Bleeding

The sky looks quite moody right now. Me too...

I do not know how to describe my feelings at the moment. I want to get all excited and happy...but the fact is, I am so worried every day. Can I blame it on the hormones?

I started to have some spotting on and off since 20/3/2014. It could be a very very light tint of pink/brown or brown or red! Then I had a real scare on 27/3/2014 after work. I felt myself gushing blood and within just 4 hours, I had soaked the whole pantiliner with bright red blood! I got paranoid!

The next morning, I called Sunfert while on my way to work. By the time I got through, I was already at my office. The nurse who answered my call asked me to lie down and rest. I kept asking if I should see Dr Wong but she said I should rest at home and not work that day. She also reminded me to get the Proluton Depot shots on the specified days as instructed. I knew there's nothing much they could do but I just got so scared. Luckily the bleed had tapered to red spotting then.

Until today, I am still spotting on and off. On a good day, there will probably be just one drop of blood the whole day. Otherwise, I'll have a bit of a mess on my liners. However minimal the bleed is, my mind just couldn't settle itself.

The scans showed some blood in the uterus but Dr Wong said that I should be fine as there is very little blood and it will resolve.

I remember so clearly how I have bled for 4 weeks prior to my miscarriage last October. The fear of losing this pregnancy is just so strong. Even hubby refused to talk about this pregnancy if the discussion could be avoided. Superstitious you may say, but after all that we've been through, I'm not so sure myself. Am I forbidden to write anything now? Is it too early to talk?

Well, suffice to say now that everything is good so far, except for the spotting/bleeding, and our scans at 6 weeks and 8 weeks detected strong heartbeats. Measurements have been on track thus far.

Will I get to buy myself some maternity clothes this time? I hope all is well. Everything crossed for an uneventful pregnancy!

I'm not a religious person...but please say a little prayer for me...